Ben’s Big Reveal
Ben makes a big, emotional reveal: he attempted suicide twice in the past.
“2018 was a rough year for me. I left a career that I thought I was going to be in forever. The Army didn’t end up working out for me, for a number of reasons, but I ended up breaking my back pretty bad, and I’m 26 years old, and I can barely walk up the steps, and I was living in a city that was too expensive for me, and I was completely lost,” Ben shares. “My life was very dark, and I didn’t know how to say that I needed things. I don’t know if you can relate with that, or how that can be. The only person I confided in was my sister, and I’m trying to give you the whole picture.”
After taking a contemplative pause, Ben commits to going “deep.”
“I had two failed suicide attempts in 2018 and 2019,” he says. “I don’t mean to, like, throw that on you. It’s a weird thing to do here. My sister, she doesn’t know, and I guess she’ll know now.”
“But I didn’t want to be here anymore, and for the same reason that I don’t like to share, it’s because I didn’t want to burden anybody with my problems,” Ben continues. “And I thought that the easiest way was to just not be around. Luckily, it didn’t work. And the only thing that got me through that was her, and she has no idea. She saved my life, and so I owe her everything.”
A Rose for Ben
Ben says he didn’t want to worry his sister, and that he never found the right time to tell her about how much she helped him.
“Through being very intentional and aggressive with my therapy, the person that you see before you today, isn’t that person,” he tells Tayshia. “It’s insane that I just told you that, because I don’t tell you that I was very scared about sharing all of those things, and I’m OK.”
“You’re OK,” Tayshia assures him. “And I’m still right here. I see you and I hear you, and that’s all I’ve been wanting. I’ve been wanting you to open up to me… you’re an amazing person.”
“I don’t want to cry, but thank you,” Ben replies. “It literally means the world to me.”
Tayshia then offers Ben the rose — she’ll be meeting his family. “I’m so incredibly happy that you’re here. I’m so happy you were able to take the steps so we’re able to progress our relationship,” she says.
TAYSHIA LOVES BEN
Ben and Tayshia end the night with a private concert.
“Today’s date has just been perfect, and now we have this stunning private concert,” Tayshia tells the camera. “The way Ben made me feel tonight is the way I want to feel with my future husband… I truly love Ben.”
TAYSHIA TRULY LOVES BEN. SHE TRULY LOVES BEN. SHE TRULY LOVES BEN!